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Hey guys 🙂 I’m sorry I didn’t update y’all last week, it’s been that time of the trip where all of the personal transformation happens, which is amazing but hard and tiring and takes a little time to process. However, now that I have processed I am sooo excited to share this new portion of my testimony. Something I was introduced to here is a sort of inner healing. Which is just having somebody pray with you and walk you through questions and dig into things the Lord wants to bring up and heal for you. I decided this was something I wanted to do, and as soon as I said yes to doing it I had immediate spiritual warfare. I wanted to go into inner healing with intentional prayer, so I had been asking God to start revealing things in me that need attention, removed, or that offended him (basically praying Psalm 139:23-24 ~ search me, O God and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life). The next night after agreeing to try inner healing and praying this psalm over myself, I was laying in bed and had a memory come up, followed by a strong fear and a scary face. A face that I had seen a few weeks prior when fasting from people (I was in a room by myself for awhile). Then somebody in the room coughed and it made me jump with fear and I felt something touch my back. The next day I hardly could read my bible or focus. I was incapable of praying out loud for my friend. I felt tired and foggy. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t. I wanted to throw up but nothing came up. I talked with my leader about all the reasons I might’ve been feeling this way and came to the conclusion I had been under some sort of spiritual attack for a long time. Come Thursday I was able to talk to one of the AIM staff and have her walk me through prayer and deliverance from that. I closed doors to things that I had opened in the past and took back any permission that I may have given to the enemy in my past. I felt like a thousand weights were lifted off my shoulders and like I had a breakthrough in my relationship with the Lord. I felt a whole new sense of purity over myself. I heard God tell me things that he knew I needed to hear. It was so sweet and I am so thankful that we serve a powerful God who has the upper hand over all attacks and trials of the enemy. I can assure you I’ll never forget to put my shield of faith on in the morning now! God just revealed to me so many times in my life that he was there protecting me from so much and had his arms over me. I have so much thanks for any person that’s ever prayed for me through my life too, their prayers were so apparent in looking back on many situations and moments. Praise God for our ability to intercede for each other and that He listens and acts! I encourage everybody to just keep praying and praying for each other, it’s so powerful whether we see the fruit of it right away, years later, or not until we pass. He will do it! It’s amazing how I asked the Lord to reveal anything in me that offends him, and just days later I have a spirit delivered away from me. Praise God for being a god that hears us and answers us. Pray specific things so God can receive the glory by giving specific answers! Thank you God for your Holy Spirit who helps us know what to pray, who helps us deliver demons, who lives and dwells in us always, I love you Lord! Thank you for saving me over and over again! You’re such a powerful and caring God! Nothing is better than you. Thank you that I was able to have joy in all the suffering last week because I know that growth and endurance comes in pain and suffering. Thank you God that when I’m unable to pray you place people in my life to pray for me, thank you that you are faithful and present even when I am distant and doubtful. Yeah, He just never runs out of goodness. Nothing beats his love for us.
